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Surprise!

by krismkoch

Surprise! We couldn’t be happier to share that Baby Kennedy #3 is coming early this spring! Thank you so much for all the well wishes and outpouring of love and support. I was blown away by all the love that you shared on my Instagram announcement and all the DMs. It took me awhile to figure out if and how I wanted to do a pregnancy announcement this time around, but your outpouring of love and support makes me so happy we finally shared the news.

It’s been so hard to keep this secret from all of you. I have been wanting to share the news for awhile now but also wanting to keep it to myself until the baby arrived safely in the world. To be honest, I’ve been terrified to publicly announce anything too, worried I would jinx myself and lose the baby if I dared to utter the words “I’m pregnant!”. I know that sounds ridiculous, but after you’ve struggled with infertility and miscarriage, finding out you are pregnant is a different ball game. (Check out my post on pregnancy after infertility that I wore after we announced Charlotte was on her way.) I’m one of those annoying people who actually loves being pregnant, but this time around, I’ve been anxious to get through each month and milestone, so scared I’d lose this baby. I kept saying I’d stop feeling anxious and share the news after this appointment, or this ultrasound or this milestone, but the fear hasn’t subsided this time. Even now, there’s a part of me that’s worried about celebrating this magical miracle in the open.

I think this pregnancy has been especially anxiety-inducing for me because we suffered a miscarriage and then some early on scares with this pregnancy. As many of you who have been following along for awhile know, we struggled with infertility while trying to conceive Charlotte. Then last spring, after undergoing a grueling round of fertility treatments, I suffered a devastating miscarriage. I have always known I wanted more children and would probably stop at nothing to get there, but for me, pregnancy after infertility and miscarriage has been rife with anxiety and fear. And as. I mentioned, we had a couple of scares early on in this pregnancy that compounded those fears. I would be lying if I said I didn’t still feel that fear every day, and I hate that it’s robbing me of some of the joy of being pregnant. But I am also so beyond grateful to be expecting our third child.

I know many of you are still hoping for your miracle or experiencing loss and infertility. I think that’s another reason I struggled with the idea of making a pregnancy announcement. I know how hard it can be to see everyone else announcing their impending bundles of joy when you’re still desperately waiting for your miracle. I know how heartbreaking, lonely and overwhelming it can be. I am always here for you.

Thank you again for all the love and support on our pregnancy announcement. Now that the cat is out of the bag, I look forward to sharing more, including the gender and pregnancy style and everything you want to know about how we’re prepping for baby #3. I promise a blog post coming soon with all the details. Thank you again for all the love and support. We truly couldn’t be more overjoyed or grateful.

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