If you follow me on Instagram, then you probably know already, but now the secret is officially out. Yes, this is my baby #4 pregnancy announcement. I know you may think you’ve just hallucinated, so yes, let me confirm, we are expecting another baby this fall. I am so beyond thrilled (and a lot nervous about how it’ll all work) but mostly beyond excited. Having a big family and four kids has always been a dream of mine, and it feels like a dream that it’s actually happening. In fact, for the longest time, I didn’t want to talk about it or say it out lout lest I jinx us and it went away. It just all felt too good to be true and still does tbh. As longtime followers know, we struggled with infertility and I haven’t talked about it much, but we also suffered miscarriages along the way as we worked to grow our family. Our journey has not been easy and there were so many moments where I just felt like a big family wasn’t in the cards for us. That was a really hard pill for me to swallow as I’ve wanted kids and four kids to be exact since I was a little. But while going through fertility treatment after fertility treatment, I made a deal with God that I’d be okay if we could just have one more, if James could just have a sibling. But I am not one to let go of my dreams easily, and I couldn’t shake the feeling we were meant to have four. We’re certainly in over our heads with three, but I’ve heard once you’ve crossed the threshold and lost man-on-man defense, it’s not that big of a difference between three and four. Idk maybe that’s just what I’m telling myself, but I’ll certainly let you know.
I waited so long to make our baby #4 pregnancy announcement in part because I was nervous something would go wrong (I still fear that every day tbh). I also was worried about how it might impact work and everything else, and then, I also know how triggering these posts can be for those who are struggling to start or grow their own family or who have suffered loss. I have experienced both, and it was so hard to see other people announce their happy news and not to be able to do the same. I will say that seeing other people with large families who had undergone fertility challenges gave me hope that maybe we could have that too. So I hope that my miracles can encourage you not to give up hope for your own. With that said, while there certainly will be some maternity and baby prep content on here, it’ll be business as usual here and on my Instagram and TT and newsletter and Substack so hopefully, there will be plenty for everyone.
I am so grateful for all the well wishes and words of encouragement. We feel so blessed and it was so hard to keep the news from all of you. You truly feel like my circle of besties — where I turn to share everything but also for advice and for the best encouragement, so I hated not sharing but also was scared to share as hopefully, I articulated. In an event, I am so glad to share the news with you now.
We are excited, the kids are (mostly) excited, Charlotte the most. Andrew is only mildly freaked out, which is a step forward from shell shocked, and well, we’re all bracing for more chaos and juggling. But first, our last summer as a family of five (which sounds crazy) and hopefully, as much traveling and work and nesting as I can get in before our new one arrives.
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